being a friend

i realised being a good friend ain't easy... i never know how they would react to my words and actions... either i'm being too honest, or they simply don't like comments at all...

in my opinion of a very very very good friend, is someone who is ultra honest and always there with me:
let's me know when i've been petty or stubborn...
laughs at me if i'm a fashion victim, but still helps me to pick a better clothe or points out what went wrong with it...
helps me up when i fall...
just being there with me when i'm down...
respects and likes me for who i am...

i never expect the people whom i call best friends are just as above, cause no one meets everyone's expectations entirely... simply saying: "No one is perfect"...

as with someone whom i feel is close to me, i'll be very honest and straightforward... cause to me, being a real friend is not to hide anything and giving honest opinions... of course not to say things to cause deliberate pain, but definitely for the purpose of self-improvement...

that's what friends are for right? you won't know what's wrong with yourself unless someone tells you... this is just like "take a step back and look at it from a different angle"... i won't know if i've done or said things i shouldn't have if no one tells me...

sigh~ i just feel people are hard to please... same goes for myself... i never like to hear people saying bad stuff about me, i find them irritating gossipy folks... but then again when i hear such stuff, i definitely will ponder on it to see how much truth was in it... IF i really am as what i hear, it's time for a change!

i want to be a better person as much as i can... not just for others, but for myself... i would feel good about myself when i don't hurt or irritate the people around me... i love people, so i want to improve to be loved back by the ones i love...

to everyone especially the ones i love:
I LOVE YOU!